The Things I Never Knew

The Things I Never Knew

I never knew such pain could exist,

Overcome by tears that I try to resist,

I never knew the pain could be so deep

Or the mountain ahead could be so steep.

Every day I climb, inching closer with every step

Every second in constant pain, life no longer giving me pep,

I never knew the heartache of a life no longer here

For my baby grew angel wings and left me in constant fear.

I never knew that such misery could be true,

That a beautiful life could end when it was still so new,

I never knew what others felt in their deepest, darkest hours,

Or the agony of feeling like a cut and dying flower.

I never knew until that day that all my dreams would fade,

And end with a broken heart, shattered by deaths merciless blade,

I never knew the path I would walk could be so full of pain

Or that I would have to fake a smile, just to try and stay sane.

I never knew underneath it all, I’d find the strength to hold on to hope

And continue to breathe, and love, and share, as I learn to try and cope,

I never knew the courage it takes to live life, and not just simply breathe

For death leaves a hole in your very soul, to the eye it does deceive.

But I also never really knew, the love and strength that could surround me

From the friends and family that mention his name, keeping his memory alive is the key

All these things I never knew, have turned my life into so much more

Than I ever could have imagined would be behind this painful door,

Too many now stand with me, learning things we never knew,

Remembering our children, and the beautiful angel wings they grew.

© 2013 Heather Grein