You’ve been in Heaven for a couple months now Trip, and Grandpa has been missing you really bad today. I know that you’re in a better place than this old nasty Earth, and I will cherish the day I get to join you.
Until then, I’m devoting most of my talents at image creation to others who are in pain and grief … I know that you are probably playing with all of these other angel babies right now, and thinking your old Grandpa is silly for crying so much while he does it, and I only hope that you are as proud of the precious keepsake images I’m creating for them, as I am to be your Grandpa, little boy.
My heart breaks every time I think about all the things we’ll never get to do together. I’ll never get to show you how to whittle a marshmallow roasting stick, or clean a fish – I won’t get to help you ride a bike, or tell you ghost stories around a campfire – I won’t get to share a scary movie, or plant a cow-kiss on your sweet cheeks, but I know you will be right beside me as I do these things with your brother(s) and sisters and cousins … so I guess we’ll be getting to do them together anyway, huh?
Some days are harder than others, and even now when I have a good day, I still feel a little guilty if I laugh out loud, but I guess it only shows that even though you have left this world behind, I’m still here and alive, and I tell myself that it’s okay to be happy sometimes too …. I’ll NEVER stop loving and missing you, and I truly think I felt your caress in the sunshine on my face today … Thank you for all of the love your little soul is still giving all of us who love you.
Grandma finds it real hard sometimes to watch me create Angel Baby images, but she also feels the love that you pour out on us when I do. Tell Tristan that Smiley Riley is doing great, and tell Savannah and Gracie and Freddie and Kynli and Braydon and all the rest that their families all really like their images – but then I’m sure you guys ALL already know that. I feel so blessed to have been your Grandpa, Eddy … You’ve made me a better man.
Grandma and I love you, Trip – forever …
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