December 6th 2012

Dear Monster  Bug,  

 I know  its been awhile but I hope you know  I think about you  everyday. Your little brother Drayce entered  the world  on November 1st  and  I  know you were right there with us. He  looks so much like you and I love him so much. I still get sad sometimes though  when I look at him because I wish  you were  here with us so I could see you both together. He had to stay  in  the  hospital just like you did and while  he  was  there they had moved  him to the same exact spot that you had stayed in and I almost lost it. They moved him though which made  it easier for me to deal with. It was still scary  though. It made me feel like I was going  through all  of the pain of losing you again. Monster bug mommy misses  you  so  much. My heart  hurts so bad when I  think  about it. I pray every day that  you watch over you little brother and protect  him. Its so hard sometimes and I almost call him monster  bug and then catch  myself which  makes  me want to cry but it just reminds me that you are with us everyday.  

 We are coming up on Christmas again and  this will be the first year were are  all together as a family and I wish  you were here so I could see you open  presents with your  sisters. I'm trying  my  hardest to keep  it cheery so your  sisters have a good christmas but its hard. I have to keep my  tears from over taking the mood  and  spirit of  christams. We were truly blessed  this year, mommy entered a contest and shared  our  story and we ended up winning a gift  card to be able to  get your sisters christmas  presents. And on top of that some friends and family have sent some  amazing blessings our way for your sisters too. Thank you for guiding me to  put your  story and the story of our  family out there.  

 Your grandpa and I have made a page for you that will have all your pictures, videos, memories  and more on so  that you will never be forgotten. I love you so much baby boy. You bring me so much strength and inspiration. And im so glad you came into our  lives. You have brought so much more  than  you could ever know. I will write you  again soon  I promise. Mommy  loves  you forever my little monster bug !!  

 Love mommy <3