My angels Story

 It all started when mommy was going to school.... She had taken mulitple pregnancy tests only for them to come out negative... So mommy decided to have daddy take her to the doctor just incase... When we got there first thing he did was an ultra sound and you were smiling in the pictures inside mommys tummy... to both of our shock and amazement i was 6 months along and having a baby boy!! We didnt even know i was pregnant... I wasnt showing at all.... right after i found out i started to show and everyone was shocked that i was pregnant and that far along.... the pregnancy went smooth and my water broke outside the doctors office right after he had just told me he was sending me to the hospital to induce me and i  went into labor with you... They labor went the best you could hope for... They had to break my water the rest of the way and you came into the world with the nicu in the room because there was mecconium in the fluid but to our suprise and joy you didnt have to go straight to the nicu... We were overjoyed, Aunt Nicole and Uncle Dave were there to welcome you into the world. The next morning when were thought we would be able to bring you home they nurses came in to do a jaundice test on you and told us you would have to go to the nicu because your numbers were higher than they had ever seen. Mommy and daddy were so scared!! We didnt know what to do.... You ended up spending almost 3 weeks in the nicu and Having a blood transfusion for being very anemic but you had lots of visitors... Aunt Sharmell came multiple time, Grandmother Smith came, Grandma and Grandpa Grein came, uncle woody, your sisters, cousins christle and stephanie and Aunt theresa all came, We were so proud to show you off.... 

Then the day you came home was so exciting!!! We couldnt wait to bring you home.... You were smiling from before you were born... We tooks so many pictures and Now im so glad we did!! 

Mommy started work when you were about two months old and was so excited to show everyone all of your pictures. 

Then one day while i was at work my phone was ringing over and over but i couldnt answer it because i was working and i didnt know what was going on... Around 6am Grandmother Smith showed up and told me to get in the car.. I was lost and didnt understand what was going on... i was in shock as she sped away patting my leg and weaving in and out of traffic... all i heard was it may be too late! and instant fear took over my whole body as i prayed everything was ok but i still didnt fully understand what had happened or what was going on... we pulled up to the entrance and i ran as fast as i could up the hill, There i found an ambulance driver and told him i think something has happened to my son that i just came from work and didnt know what was going on...He held on to me and told me that Im sorry to tell you but he isnt breathing and we are no longer trying to resuscitate... I immediately colapse against the wall screaming NO NO NO PLEASE GOD NO

It took everything i had inside to pull myself up and let him lead to the room you were in... It was full of loving family. Aunt Keshia, Aunt Sharmell, aunt Monica, aunt Nicole, Uncle Jeff, Uncle Calvin, Grandmother Smith and Uncle woody and your sisters and daddy was crying rocking back and forth blaming himself and in shock too... we hugged and then i sat next to the bed where your little body was laying!! It was the saddest memory i have... The nurse came in and wrapped you in warm blankets and placed you in my arms.... I sat in the chair and held you crying and crying!..... I laid you down and found an inner strength i didnt even know i had as i walked outside and called your grandma and grandpa I cant remember anything i said except i had to repeat over and over baby eddy passed away... baby eddy passed away... i went back to the room and did my best to comfort you daddy and help him in his greif, and then i held you in my arms until it was time to go and so we leaned over to kiss you cold little nose and as daddy did i remember this so clearly he said "OMG he is so COLD God NO NO NO" and i hugged him and we walked down the hall.... 

The next few Days were a blur... we stayed at aunt sharmells house and i dont remember much except that there was a special lady offering to help us in this time of need She has forever gained a friend in me.... I wish i could do more to thank her for all she has done for us... She is an amazing woman and has been there for us since the day it happened. Her name is Jessica Fuller and she is an angel on earth.