Letter

To my dearest monster bug,

     My heart aches to know I will never again hold you in my arms. There is a constant pain no words can describe that has left a hole in my heart.

You left too soon and I miss you with every ounce of my being. I will never get to make you feel better when you scrape your knee or have your first broken heart. I will never get to see your sweet smile or hear you soft little giggle again.

I am trying my hardest to stay strong and keep everything together for your sisters, brother and dad. Sometimes I don’t know if I have it in me but then I think of you and you give me strength to get through the day and sleep through the night. I wish I could see you once more and hold you in my arms, tell you I love you and say good bye to my little monster bug. I will never let your memory die. You will live on forever in my heart. You changed my life forever! I will never forget the happiness you brought to all who knew you. I wish with all my heart that I had more time with you. You were the best baby a mother could ask for and I am so blessed to be your mother!!! You were able in your passing to save anothers life…. I am so proud that  you were able to do that…. You have inspired me in so many ways…. I love you so much…. I hope one day soon god will bless us with another baby and I hope you will be there with me every step of the way, keeping him or her safe and being my guiding light…. I will never forget you and all the changes you brought to my life. You are eternally in my heart and soul. Though I miss you more than word could say I know you had a purpose and you enjoyed everyday on earth you had. I love you for always and forever my little monster bug. Thank you for blessing me with your loving heart and constant smiles. I will always cherish those memories. R.I.P. Baby Eddy <3

     Love always,

                Your mommy