He's Gone

Shock fills me and I cannot comprehend
     the words which are spoken …
Disoriented and numb –
     my heart completely broken.

Trembling from within,
     I fall limply to the floor,
Screaming “No!” and uncontrollably crying,
     they help me to the door.

Lost in a nightmare as I hold my baby boy,
     I gently kiss his cold little lips,
So scared and broken inside,
     my heart feels completely ripped …

They wrap me in warm blankets,
     trying to comfort me from the cold,
The empty words “It will be ok”
     are all that I am told.

My nightmare is now real life,
     with no end of pain in sight,
They tried so hard to save him,
     but in the end, they lost the fight.

As I say goodbye, my life turns grey
     just like his sweet little face;
Then I’m walking beside those I love
     trying desperately to just keep pace.

Forever changed inside,
     from that one heart-breaking day -
That day I lost my baby,
     now I struggle to find my way.

I just keep going, one step at a time,
     it’s all that I can manage.
The pain in my soul is so intense,
     but all I have is love’s bandage.

This is the tragic story,
     of how I lost my precious little son,
And one thing that I’ve learned,
     is a grieving mother’s journey is never done …

© 2013 Heather Grein

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